Sunday, March 9, 2014

I love you, Daddy...


Dear Readalot,

I have been putting off writing for quite a bit now. For the life of me, I had no idea that it would be the passing of my father that would bring me here. I should probably apologize in advance, because I doubt I have anything funny to say tonight.

Last night, I heard my mum scream. I love my mother to bits and I worry about her more than she worries about herself. So, I ran into her room to find out what could have happened.

She was on the phone. From her tone and gestures, I knew something bad had happened. However, I thought this bad thing had happened to someone else. I waited for her to be done with her call. Before I could ask what happened, she said; "Your daddy is dead."

I can't exactly recall the first few emotions that I felt. I only know that the earth seemed to spin a little.

My parents separated when I was nine years old. I stayed with my mum. For more than half my life, I wasn't really close to my dad. Life, in it's uncanny manner, made us drift apart.

When I was a kid, my dad spoilt us kids rotten. There was almost nothing he wouldn't do for his kids. He was a workaholic. Sadly, this was one of the things that did damage to my parents' marriage. But, undeniably, irrevocably, my father loved his children.

My father was not perfect. No one is, really.

But I didn't care. I don't care. Life throws so much bullshit at us. Sometimes, we catch it and throw it right back. Other times, it hits us and throws us down and bruises us. It bruised my daddy. It hurts me so much that it did.

I'm probably babbling a lot. What I'm trying to say is that I loved my daddy. Very much. I'm sorry for all the times I could have been a better daughter and I wasn't. I'm just trying to make sure it's recorded somewhere. Here. That I love my daddy. And I know that he loved and loves me too.

            1948 -2014

Charles Oladele Ogunleye, you're in my heart….now…always. 


Yours truly, Simi.

PS: I found my brother's article this morning. 
http://rainbowspotholes.wordpress.com/2014/03/09/the-night-my-father-died/


19 comments:

  1. May God comfort you. Amen.

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  2. Woow so sorry about your loss!May the LORD be with you and your family at large. We love you and know daddy is in a better place. Slasha

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  3. Mehn! I didn't get to meet him,neither did I hear much about him but I knew that he loved his children nd they loved him too! My condolences sis,may his soul rest in perfect peace! Love you!

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  4. Oh Simisola....I am so sorry about your Dad. I can imagine how you feel right now cuz I lost my dad about ten years ago. May his soul rest in peace and may the good lord protect the ones he left behind.Be strong...

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  5. So sowwyy. Wishing you God's comfort and strength:)

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  6. May his soul rest in peace dear. My prayers go to you and your family.

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  7. Simisola it is certainly well with Brother Dele. God sees everything and shall judge all those who had the opportunity to play family with him and did not. Anyway, now that he has gone to meet with his maker, I hope eyes shall become clear and no amount of crocodile tears will change the truth and history. May his soul rest in perfect peace. God knows he truly deserves it.

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    1. Amen uncle. Thank u so much sir :)

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  8. Oh simi, I wish I understood all the emotions you feel but I don't . Am sorry for your loss. And above all I pray that God gives you strength to see your family through this trying time.

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  9. Sorry for your loss

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  10. The spirit of Yahweh is your strength

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  11. Am sure he is proud of you... :)

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